Uneven Feeling Tonite !

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Now feeling abit sick, i duno why, maybe due to my late dinner, or rather supper. Weight went up abit!! SICK, i cant let that happen!
Anyway, friday nite, my 3 other frens were online and thus including myself, the 4 of us had a very very very long conversation abt sense of attire, human's attitude, pampered or spoilt character and each other love partner etc etc etc .. These topics go non-stop and after we change to another topic, soon after we realised that we were back to that topic. And some of my frens were so agitated discussing these sunjects HAHAHAHA .. you all know wat i meant!! The next day, another 2 frens were online at different timings but the subjects and topics discussed involved what i mentioned above also. So interesting hehe

Well, anyway, my bro is getting married but i think the totally SUX!! Before that, my sis and I already had argument with my Bro regarding his wedding. The story goes like this ...
My elder Bro getting married and he had asked my parents if they wanted him to arrange for customary wedding dinner? My dad, who had insufficient funds to aid him in his wedding said up to him as he cant helped my Bro financially. But i knew my dad and mum wanted to see a wedding dinner as this is the first wedding incident of the family and my Bro is the eldest of the siblings too. Well, my Bro finally decided on Buffet style on the day of ROM. He told my dad, but dad said its fine but if he were to arrange for Buffet style, my dad wont invite a single friend. I can understood my dad's feelings. It would be rather difficult to invite those uncles and aunties to a BUFFET wedding style dinner rite. I mean how would my parents going to entertain their frens this way and also in the fact, uncles and aunties of the older generation are not into such modern styles too. But still, my dad said up to my Bro's decision. Anyway, there were some minor arguments here n there lah.

My Bro had decided a day for the ROM cum Buffet, and he asked my mum to bring him to our "SHI FU" to choose an auspicious date. SHI FU said the date my Bro chosen isnt good. And he given my Bro a good day. My Bro was running thru his mind abt the day SHI FU given, but mum immediately told SHI FU that let's decide on that date and need not care abt my BRO decision. My Bro was furious and annoyed coz my mum was not giving him and space to decide made her decision. My Mum is wrong at this. I should not side her!During dinner when Bro is not at home, toking abt the dates, mum cried out and said she wont attend the wedding dinner and wont pray to ancestors etc if my Bro gona choose that date. My mum is superstitious. Becoz that day, the bride's side will "draw" all the luck of my family to their side so my mum die die wont allowed! Something like this!

Parents were unhappy from onstart abt my Bro's wedding. My Bro applied for flats etc already. One fine day, he just told my dad that he is getting married and flat had came and asked to borrow money from my dad for some legal purposes. Dad was unhappy coz Bro din discussed anything with him and get things done already. And till date, my parents and the bride's family also havent sat down for a meal and discussing abt the wedding procedure or getting to know each family well.

That nite, my sis and i had very great argument with Bro. I told Bro that from my commuication with parents, they hope to see a wedding dinner rather then buffet, although they say up to my Bro to decide. Bro was fucked up. He said he had arranged for everything n now dad and mum said otherwise. I clarify that thats what i feel and told him that he had to think otherwise for the aged parents. Which parents do not want to see and tell their frens and relatives their children is getting married?? If my Bro is a low income earner, i would have nothing to say. He is earning 3.5K per mth. He gets home abt 2.9K plus minus per mth. Thou he owes a car, there is no special reason for him to say he has no money for this n tat. There are many pple who earns lesser then my Bro rite? But they are still getting married what.
Juz now, i gave my Bro a suggestion. I ask him to loan from banks. Find the possible lowest interest loan. He said he wont be so stupid, to get married and after that bear heavy debts. I agree with him but when there is a need for cash and he hasnt had enuff, this is one alternative!! He replied saying, his company gives 1.5K for wedding purposes and he can easily take that 1.5K and go for travelling with the wife as wedding, need not have any dinner etc. He added on saying now the problem ly on OUR side and not his future wife's side! WHAT a FUCK !! U all get what i meant ??? Dun u think he is really fucked up !! If i had a child like this, i rather not have one !

I know money is difficult, but when one wanted to get married and had not sufficient funds, they just have to make a loan what. You tell me, how many young couples can marry without the help of anyone includding parents? NO i dun think so. Maybe 1 out of 10 or even 20 can settle everything themselves. Usually parents will forked out money for wedding. My Bro expect and think that its a NORM that parents need to fork out money for their son's wedding etc. And he thinks this should be the way!

Well, what i can said abt my Bro is that he is stingy and fucked up. He owes my sis $800 and he refused to returned. He owes me $500 and he refused to return. I din ask him for this money since at least 6 years ago. I cant be bothered. Yet he had the money to keep changing hp. I asked him to supp me a OCBC safra credit card as i wanted to make use of safra benefits thru the card. I wont use his supp card if i dun go to safra and i surely will pay him back if i used. Not that i do not have my own credit cards what, its juz tat my current income does not permit me to apply for credit cards anymore. Anyway, he refused to. He said dun want! But his future wife has so many of his supp cards and is spending on them and i bet my Bro is the one paying. When ink catridges and fax toner used up, i ask him to buy or share the money, he said he seldom use. Lastime printer was down, i told him to share expenses with me to buy, he said he seldom print. I bought the fax machine, he started to use. I suggested to buy a router so that i can connect internet wireless for them and he need no use dial up anymore, he said he can always dial up. So i get the router and he used the internet connection. Previously when i was out of job, I told him to share the internet fees with me, he said he seldom use, only come back use in the nite only! My credit cards had outstanding charging me at 24% interest p.a which i have to pay $100 plus every mth as interest. I asked him to apply for cashline or moneyline to help me pay off my credit cards bills, and i will pay mthly to his cashline/moneyline. He said NO, saying what if i dun pay up!! What a fuck man, i m his brother, he dun even trust me and tellin me that lan jiao words what if i dun pay!
He better not asked me for money issues in future. I wont give a damn. Though we are blood brother, but i felt the pain of how my blood bro treated me and his trust for me. Even my fren did a balance transfer for me of 2.5K .

Totally SUX !! Im feeling very uneven tonite !! Help !!